As a creative person I not only paint and draw but I write my own music and have sung in a couple of rock bands. I write a lot of poetry too and have had some poems published.
Reflections is my 2nd album I began writing it back in 1999 it revolves around my life experiences, my environment and my family. It started out as a response to the Millennium Song For Winchester competition.
I have decided to upload a few examples of my lyrics as my music is as important as my visual art practice.
CAMELOT REVISITED
Winchester,
your history
Shrouded
deep in mystery,
Kings and
knights, their spirits come,
To greet the
dawn of the millennium.
And did King
Arthur and Guinevere,
Preside at
the round table here?
And King
Alfred burn the cakes to brown,
His mind so
intent on England’s crown?
And what of
brave Sir Lancelot,
Where would
he find his Camelot?
Where
knights would fight with bravery
Today it’s
just a lottery!
And if King
Alfred walked these streets,
What would
he say to those he meets?
Would he
recognise it all
As England’s
oldest capital?
Winchester,
your city stands,
A shining
tower throughout the land,
Where old
and new go hand in hand,
To suit the
21st century man.
And if King
Alfred walked these streets,
What would
he say to those he meets?
Would he
recognise it all,
As England’s
oldest capital?
COLOURS OF MY MIND
This song was written about my
Bipolar Disorder and was inspired by my eagerness to explain who the real me
is.
Colour my mind golden
Like the sunshine in the morning
Like the day when it is dawning
Going through the colours of my mind.
Oh yes, I’m going through the colours of my mind
When my mood is high
I’m having a good time
Going through the colours of my mind.
Colour my mind ebony
Like despair for all eternity
Like emptiness and misery
Going through the colours of my mind.
I’m going through the colours of my mind
When my mood is low
There ain’t no use in tryin’
Going through the colours of my mind.
Through shades of gold and ebony
My moods they change so easily
From emptiness to harmony
Sometimes it seems the same to me.
I’m going through the colours of my mind
From gold to ebony, from low to high
The more the colours change, the more I try,
To find the shade of colour in between –
To find the shade of colour that is me!
FANTASY GIRL
This song is about me and how I tend
to live in a fantasy world, a daydreamer.
She lives in a world of her own making
She lives in a world inside her head
The real world is there just for the taking
But the real world just fills her full of dread.
CHORUS
Fantasy girl in your fantasy world
You can’t live your whole life in a dream
Wake up to the real world fantasy girl
It’s really not as bad as it may seem.
She spends all her nights restlessly dreaming
She spends all her days just making plans
But dreams and schemes ain’t worth the time you’re wastin’
The future of your life lies in your hands.
CHORUS
INSTRUMENTAL BREAK
CHORUS X 2
GYPSY EYES
This was originally written as a love poem to
David Essex but I later set it to music for the album.
Gypsy eyes
Looking at me
Gypsy eyes
Oh can’t you see?
How my soul
Longs to be free
To spend the night
Just loving thee.
INSTRUMENTAL BREAK
Gypsy eyes
Looking at me
Gypsy eyes
Oh can’t you see
How my soul
Longs to be free
To spend the night
Just loving thee.
And when the sun
Breaks through the skies
To gaze upon
Your gypsy eyes.
And when the sun
Breaks through the skies
To gaze upon
Your gypsy eyes.
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE
This song was written for my
estranged children who I lost touch with after the breakup of a violent
relationship with their father.
CHORUS
I can’t live
without your love
What you
doin’ to me now?
I can’t live
without your love
What you
doin’ to me now?
I thought I’d found a happy life
Thought I’d be somebody’s wife
Doesn’t change the way I feel
My love for you is just as real.
CHORUS
All those years I cared for you
In the bad times pulled you
through
Now I’ve found a love that’s
true
You cast me aside like a
worn-out shoe.
CHORUS
I tried to make a brand new
start
I thought that you would play a
part
It’s hard to live with a broken
heart
Missing you’s tearing me apart.
You are my children
You are my children
INSTRUMENTAL BREAK
CHORUS
I can’t live
without your love
I can’t live without your love
I can’t live without your love
I can’t live without your love.
OBSESSION
I wrote this song after watching a TV
programme about obsessed fans of famous people it inspired me to write a sad
song about what obsession could lead to.
She stands like a statue
At the corner of the stage
Totally alone
Though in a crowd.
She gazes transfixed
Waiting for her hero to arrive
He strides through the mist
And she screams out loud.
Cos she’s his No. 1 fan
And he’s her No. 1 man
And she’d do anything
Just for a touch of his hand
If she can’t have him for her own
Then she must live her life alone
Getting by the best way that she can.
Another year, another tour
She’s waiting there by the stage door
They share a joke
As he signs an autograph.
Another town, another tour
She’s more eager than before
She’s managed to acquire
A backstage pass.
Her life is just a circle
Of one night stands
In different towns
As she follows her idol round and round.
All she wants is to be his bride
Be forever by his side
She can’t accept reality
She lives within her fantasy
Getting by the best way that she can.
Finally the tragedy
Her obsession’s gone too far
She follows him
As he goes to his car.
She pulls the gun
And fires two shots
With deadly accuracy
One for my darling and one for me.
SAMANTHA
My daughter Samantha asked me to
write a song for her so here it is, she’s the only one of my children that I
see regularly.
Samantha… you came into my life
You were so perfect
My little baby girl, my little rosebud
So beautiful, you’re everything to me.
I can’t believe
They took you away from me
You were my world
My reason to be…. Samantha
INSTRUMENTAL BREAK
I can’t believe
The woman you’ve become
So brave and so strong
You’ve weathered all the storms.
You took all the pain
And bore it like your Mum
Now you’re a mother
With children of your own…. Samantha
(spoken) I love you
THE CHILD INSIDE
I wrote this song after undergoing
counselling sessions when my counsellor told me I was burying all the hurt
inside me like a child inside and that I had to learn to deal with the past
before I could look to the future.
She puts a mask on to the world
She hides her tears behind a smile
But still she cannot hide
The child inside, the child inside.
The hurt and pain lie buried deep
It’s the secret that she keeps
But still she cannot hide
The child inside, the child inside.
She craves the love she never knew
She searches for it constantly
For still she cannot hide
The child inside, the child inside.
If only she could find release
Then her soul would be at peace
There’d be no need to hide
The child inside, the child inside.
CHORUS
The child inside,
The child inside,
The child inside,
The child inside.
TWIST OF FATE
This song was written about a
relationship that should never have been and is the only rock number on the
album.
He’s a man of steel
With a heart of gold
With a stare to make
Your blood run cold.
Yet the flames of passion
That burn within
Send fingers of flame
Dancing ‘cross my skin.
CHORUS
It’s a twist of fate
A twist of fate
My head says no
But my heart can’t wait.
Tumbling locks
Of burnished gold
Eyes of ice
Piercing cold.
His kisses burn
To my very soul
With a heat to melt
The winter snow.
CHORUS
He’s a magic man
A magic man
He’ll steal your heart away
As fast as he can.
And lock it up
In his magic box
And seal it safely
With ‘forever’ locks.
CHORUS
I waited so long
To see you again
I thought of you often
And prayed you weren’t gone.
When I held you
In my arms again
I loved you now
As I’d loved you then.
CHORUS
Fate the strange taskmaster
Twists her fickle finger
And I’m once again
With my rock ‘n roll singer
CHORUS
It’s a twist of fate
A twist of fate
My head says no
But my heart can’t wait.
WHEN LOVE FALLS APART
This song was written about when a relationship
breaks up and is particularly poignant now after the breakup of my 2nd
marriage.
Don’t it break your heart
When love falls apart
All the love you’ve known
Is broken up and gone.
When love falls apart
It’s breaking your heart
If only it were yesterday
Then it wouldn’t have to be this way.
Yesterday (yesterday)
We swore to lover forever
Come what may (come what may)
Then came the dawn (came the dawn)
And like a thief in the night
Our love it took flight.
Don’t it break your heart
When love falls apart
Happiness you’ve known
Is broken up and gone.
When love falls apart
When love falls apart
When love falls apart!
